They say "with age, comes wisdom." For me it was a little different. With experience came my wisdom and all the little lessons my mother has been trying to pound into my head for the first 20 years of my life. I went through the life altering experience of getting pregnant and choosing to place my daughter for adoption last year.
Being a student in college and away from my parents and family I chose to keep it a secret. I kept myself cooped up and felt so lost. I was extremely depressed and didn't know what to do. I was given a phone number to an agency from my nurse to get the adoption underway seven months into my pregnancy.
My mind was fried and my heart under arrest. I finally got the courage and spoke with a wonderful woman named Yazmin. She made everything sound so simple and calmed my nerves. 24 hours later I received a phone call from one of the sweetest voices and dearest people I could have met at that time. Someone, who I will always consider to be a friend, Stacey Levine. This woman is so wonderful, from that moment on, I had my emotional back up handy. At the touch of my cell phone I could stop tears from coming and doubts from entering my mind. She was my therapy, my support group. She reminded me of how strong I am and the courageous decision I was making.
Being young and getting pregnant is an extremely difficult thing. Making the choice to give your child up for adoption after you carry her is even harder. When the big day finally came and my beautiful daughter was born and the papers had to be signed, I fell into a black hole. I felt lost all over again and like I was back at the beginning, alone and confused, sitting there while I heard my baby's life being read away destroyed me.
With the help of the wonderful crew at ACF I got the courage to lift my pen and give my beautiful angel a second and fair chance at life. She was placed into the arms of the most amazing and deserving family I think I have ever met. I couldn't have been happier with their decision in a family for my daughter. I still speak to them frequently and see pictures of the most gorgeous creature God ever placed into my arms. It been almost a year and I look back on my life and I'm so happy with myself. God puts some pretty heavy tasks into our hands at times. But he will never give us an obstacle we can't overcome. For me growing up and realizing the true value of life was long overdue. I can't say I would ever wish this upon anyone, but if you are faced with the same decisions I was, I would advise that you think twice and talk to someone. As a birth mother, ACF was my saving grace. I found the strength within me to move mountains and change my life and a few very special people's out there as well.Nancy,